NO Choice! Final Chapter!
- LaMia Pierce
- Feb 25, 2018
- 3 min read
It was never by choice always by force!
You made your way back through the door and it didn't matter how hard I tried to stand and hide, to run to fight and to pray. God knows I tried. It wasn't my heart that you held so dear. It was your over powering, conniving nature that kept me in constant fear. It was my nature to just want peace, to calm the storm, to let it be and that kept allowing you to overpower me. I slept beside the devil while crying to God and each day going around the mountain there was still no place to hide!
It was never by choice always by force!
I listened to sermons, played the tunes of gospels in my ear, but still every day or other day I still was faced with fear. I has to pray for friends and family too and only my God would allow me to pray for you I had to be transparent to the world for every one to see it was your demons fighting my demons that kept taking a hold of me.
It was never by choice always by force!
There is a lesson to learn in the storms we face and each time I allow you in my space God spared me so know I know the meaning of His amazing Grace.
People have opinions and some will never understand. I had to go through with you so God could make way for His divine plan to be manifested., to show me the way and to make me see myself in a new way. It was a long, hard journey and times I thought I would break away. I would thank God that today would be the final day and that this chapter with you would finally come to an end but you knocked, pretended, begged, pleaded and just like the Devil slithered your way in. It became my normal this game of pretend but trust and believe God was still my only true friend! The lesson wasn't for you but for me to learn each hurt, each blow, each bruise, each tear I cried God needed me to be afflicted with no place to hide. I still found safety in God's arms. Stretched wide God became my secret place and my place of safety to hide.
It was never by choice always by force!
I danced with the devil out of fear but thank you God for still being that listening ear. Yesterday I cried because I failed God's test. Today God turned around and told me I deserve the best. I endured enough and cried enough tears. Stand firm in God's promises that today is still the beginning of my new year. I learned to trust God more and praise indeed through prayers for others and my Instagram feed. I became transparent through the pictures and words but God designed it that way so my pain, my struggles, my victories could reach other souls. It's a heavy burden to carry when you have to encourage others while in the midst of your own storms. To be transparent in a society that tells you to follow the norms.
It was never by choice always by force!
The chapter of you has to end, God said the time has come and He has given me the strength this time to finally win. Leaving this toxicity and abuse has finally come to and End! Life isn't promised and no more forcing your way in.
Today I took my power back and what was once by force and not my choice God used for His Glory and Now I hear my Own Voice!!
Chapter Ended Door Closed!
(c) Copyright 2018 LaMia Pierce
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